Coffee Cups & Wilderness Seasons: Why I'm Still Saying Yes to 40 Days!

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Umm… hello, Summer.

Can you believe we’re already in June?

To be honest, I wasn’t sure I’d make it out of May. Every year, it seems like May comes swinging—emotionally, spiritually, physically. And this one? It knocked the wind out of me.

Again.

I don’t know what it is about May, but it’s become one of those months I brace for. This year, it left me feeling like I was crawling into June. Bone-tired. Spirit-weary. Like my tears had soaked into my coffee cup more than usual.

And if you’re feeling anything like that too… I want you to know you’re not alone.

Could you do something with me? Could you whisper a prayer over this next May? That it would be redeemed. That it would overflow with joy, rest, and unexpected blessings. I’m declaring it now in Jesus’ name… because I have to believe it can be different. I need to.

May left me depleted. Like… ache-in-your-body depleted. I could feel the emotional and spiritual weight showing up physically. Isn’t it wild how your soul’s battles can find their way into your shoulders, your stomach, your sleep?

I’ve been in this strange, silent season with God. The kind where you keep praying, but it feels like your words bounce off the ceiling. I know He’s near—I know it—but I haven’t felt Him. And that can mess with your mind and your heart, especially when you look around and see the people you love walking in answered prayers while you're still standing in the waiting room.

I’m genuinely happy for them, but it also stings. Have you ever been there? Caught between celebration and sorrow?

It’s even harder when you're leading others while bleeding quietly behind the scenes. I’ve been trying to run this ministry, but truthfully? It feels like a dry season. And Summer—normally our biggest season of impact—started to feel like one more thing I didn’t have the strength for.

Maybe part of me is still bleeding from last year’s grief. Maybe I thought I’d be further along by now. Healed by now. Full of vision and momentum. But instead, I’m here. Tired. Wrestling. Feeling forgotten, even though I know that’s a lie.

And it’s a strange place to be when God gives you the word “love” for your year… and yet, you feel anything but loved.

That’s where I was last week—sitting down to finish planning Get Up Summer—something I started prepping back in April. The guides were mostly done. But I just couldn’t do it. I felt so much resistance in my spirit. It felt heavy, like trying to write with sandbags on my hands.

So I did the only thing I could think of… I grabbed my Bible.

I ended up in 1 Samuel—and wow. I couldn’t put it down. It felt brand new to me, like I was reading it for the first time. God started to stir something in me. A whisper. A spark. An invitation to chase His heart like David did… even in the wilderness. Even in my lack. Even when I feel like I’m not enough.

And that’s when I knew: this summer needs to look different. This summer, we’re chasing God’s heart. Together. For 40 days.

I’ll be honest—I don’t have a lot of hope or faith stored up right now. But I have enough. I’ve got a mustard seed. And I believe that’s all it takes for God to move. Not just in my life… but in yours too.

So if you’ve felt forgotten, discouraged, weary, or stuck—this challenge is for you. It’s time to get back up.

Here’s why this summer is so special:

We’re going 40 days deep—the longest Get Up Summer Shift Worthy Ministries has ever done. But this isn’t just a number. Forty is sacred. It's the number of testing and transformation. Forty days in the wilderness. Forty days on the ark. Forty days on the mountain. Forty days until something changes.

And maybe—just maybe—this is our 40.

Over these 40 days, we’ll move our bodies, pray bold prayers, open our Bibles, and walk with worship in our ears and faith in our steps. We’re going after our Kingdom assignments with whatever sling and stone we’ve got in our hands. This isn’t just another challenge. This is a shift. A climb.

We’re scaling a mountain together—one journal entry, one Psalm, one act of obedience at a time.

And on the other side? I believe there’s Kingdom confidence. There’s healing. There’s breakthrough. There’s a Promised Land waiting for us.

So come as you are, friend.

Let’s rise up and reign together.

Let’s chase after the heart of our King this summer.

Let’s get up.

Starts June 20th. You can join in at any time. Just bring your honest heart, your Bible, and maybe your coffee cup… even if it’s full of tears.

We’re going to make it.

Together.